Im good. cool. arguing with ppl on forums. i dont innitiate the verbal comp wars myself but i WILLNOT go down without a fight. its a flaw with myself i think. but if im attacked...well...i get immature..oh well...lol

Starting a comic book. got a main character down. writing the story line until i feel i have enough to work with for now. going to sketch out some other char ideas and things like that.
Bacicly...
-Female Ninja/rouge assasin
-mother is a housewife/psychic, father is a japanese military man
-miracle child for a woman for whom it was very unlikely she would ever become pregnant and would not be able to again
- tomboy with no mind for oneday being married or becoming a baby factory like she is told she should
- daughter to a father who wanted a son and cannot bring himself to love her
-somwhere the parents die or get kidnapped or father becomes her nemisis (i think the last one maby)
-She posseses a secret mysical power
-other weird characters like anthro's,aliens(maby),demons and spirits coexisting with the normal poeple
but yea...im not going to submit anything about it or for it. i dont know why but i just dont want to untill i feel im really DONE with somthing...like some of the story, solid characters,ect.
thats what im up to.
bah<3
Jessi

...haha can you just believe that? I was 15. A wee little lass. And i was just thinking of how much i feel i have improved in this time, BUT i was also thinking of all the great people i met and awsome little high-school- dramma like moments here.

- number UNO in my mind is somone i could call my BESTIE when it comes to internet friends.
dosent really come on here much anymore and i must admit i havent talked to him in a while. but he is one of the coolest,cuddliest,craziest, lovable mofos i know and i just lvoe him to death. weve talked about random bullshit and i was even honored enough to hear about some personal (some sad) aspects of his life. and i tried my best to help him or give advice or cheer him up. i just love that guy! I think ill message him on Myspace or somthing...i would really enjoy hearing how hes doing...I LOVE MY SHE-BANG! (shane)

Ive met some great artists or maby just silently watched them from afar on this site and i aspire to be as talented as they are. too many to name really...poets, photographers, digital and traditional aartists. but really everyone i watch is talented. YOU ALL ARE AWSOME! and if your reading this like " i wonder is shes talking about me...?" YES! ALL OF YOU! you you you...and you!

Lets talk dramma- BOY HOWDY! i have gotten wrapped up in some shit over the years. some with people i dont even know. Ive read old comments and Notes ( ive never deleted any of my notes lol) and jesus christ did i make some enemys, say awful things, had awful things said to me..ect...
I used to love murderously arguing with people on the forum....for weeks! people i dont even know! walkign right in to agruments that had nothing to do with me and MADE them all about me! (how stupid but i was young)

- i remember this one time my friend was having an all out drag out WAR with this other girl i didnt even know. (Maby i saw her at the mall once i think) This demon-chick was awful. BUT she was a great photo-manipulater she combined the two talents of being a wretched bitch and an awsome photo-manip person.(My friend was starting her modeling career and had gotten some pictures done of her *they were beautiful*) WELL this crazy lady took her modeling pixx and well...did some awful things to them. (basicly in one she was implying that my friend was butt ass ugly and in the other that she was an avid cutter..very imbelished photos but also i hate to say...very talented girl) well before i know it im wrapped up in cussing her out shes cussing me, spamming her page...metting with my friend and plotting to take her out. blablabla...got her booted off many times..but she created yet more accounts.....i dont remeber how it was resolved at all...but it was...
she was the bane of my existance for at least a year...when that dramma was resolved she poped up again a month later fighting with another friend of mine...the cycle restarted again...maby some of you remember leaving me commments to remove the spam on my page. lol.
she was the main one but their were many others i hasseled with. what bullshit. im an idiot. lmfao.
(not that anyone really cares about all this...but im chowing down on memories right now so tough cookies.)

In current news. working on another drawing. its another "celestial" type i swear after this one ill move on to somthing else.
I want some apple juice...
BYE!
Jessi

An artist,cartoonist,illistrator....fuck. Is that what im trying to do here? Its that what i think i am or will be? I try. so fucking hard. and yes, i have grown...alot. but not nearly enough. i love drawing. so much. i love it with all of me. i feel so happy when i get done with one...i just love it. I see so many other people and they're all so good...great...
I used to think that they just had a different style than me. and they do..i have my own way of doing things. with no schooling what could i have possibly learned. but they are just plain better than me...so wonderful and beautiful. Ill try my very best to do somthing about this. tiny little step by tiny little step. but i wont compromise my syle that makes me happy. i have alot of other things to do and imporve on my life in general berfor schooling can even be thought of. My portraits are getting better (you havent seen those b/c they are on such big paper) and thats a start. I dont give a fuck how many dime a dosen cartoonists/illistrators there are...better than me or not...im going to keep it moving for me, because it makes me happy. and thats all that matters.
so there....
I managed to depress myself and cheer myself up in the frame of 5 minutes. lol.
...well thats me.
jessi

So hey all. Trying to come back. Been doing nothing and everything @ the same time it feels like. I just tottaly simped out on the 75 drawings contest. im a loser and i suck. but i did draw some other new stuff that i like and uploaded so check it, yah herd?! Doing some kind of elemental thing. I did water and fire. Do you guys think i should do the basic Earth,Wind, Water and Fire?? :!: OR :!: Should i include others such as like...umm...other elements...i guess. you know what..nevermind. Ill just do the basics..if i give myself too big of a project i will just flake out and not wanna do it..so yea..:sweat:
but everything is cool on this end. just a livin with my mom and my man and its so much fun.<3
haveagoodone
Jessi BITCH!@